Just Beautiful # 3 Me and the Flowers

Last Thursday when Daddy got home, he accidentally forgot something in his office so he decided to go back there. Kids and I accompanied him at his office and went shopping after to minimize usage of gas. It's my first visit in his office, I am excited to see where daddy works everyday. I never had a chance to go inside but my kids did, they need to use the bathroom so daddy has no choice but to bring them inside.

I didn't go inside anymore because I am so fascinated with the flowers in front of their office. Spring is indeed here huh? Look at the flowers they are as beautiful as me, don't they? Hahahhaha I wonder how the other readers that doesn't know me reacted on this lines. Oh just look at the flowers and no more violent reactions okay?

They are so beautiful!

GT : I Love ME =)

Wow congratulations to our new host and to GT winner Fhedz! =) Hooray!
I almost forgot to join today....Just got home from watching ECLIPSE and I miss FB so I checked it and thanks to Enchie's post! ;D

So...were talking about body huh!?! Oh well....next topic please! Just kidding! =))

What do you think of me?! heheheh =))
Actually just started to appreciate my body kung kailan nagkaaanak ako at ang laki na ng tinaba ko....still thinking why?

(Taken last June 5 @ pico de loro's children's shower/locker room)

Imagine I started to wear swimsuit just this year. I just started wearing shorty shorts when I begin to wear swim suits. Golly.
I was so skinny when I was still single, but I never thought of wearing swimsuits or shorts coz my legs are not flawless! When got married and had my kids, I still don't have the guts to wear those not until this time =P
Obviously...I love myself. Look at me taking pic of myself =)
I love everything in ME =)
Even I'm fat and has almost 5 kl belly, I still love myself. Even if I have no beautiful and flawless legs, I still love its shape =) I LOVE myself from top to legs except my feet ehehehe =))
Oh well...can't do anything about it so I have no choice but to love it! Lols.
All in all I still LOVE myself no matter how it looks like. It is ME, it was given by God. Though sometimes I admit I hate myself when I feel like my husband is not proud of me. =( But I'm sure I was just thinking about it. Insecure?! =P Oh I hate that feeling!

Letter to God #1 "Thank you"

Dear Lord,

There are so many things You have given me all my life...I may not thanking You everyday but you know in my heart how I appreciate them and how thankful I am.
Let me take this opportunity to thank You!

Thank you for teaching me how to LOVE...
For LOVE made ME and my HUSBAND be together all this time.
Thank You for giving him to me...
My HUSBAND is the best gift I ever had.

Thank You for giving me more inspiration to live...
Thank You for giving me my little angels ISHI and ETHAN.
They completed my life as a woman.
They are the one's giving me strength when I am down
and giving me courage when I am in battle.

Thank you for giving my MOM physical and emotional strength everyday...
for I often give him pain in her heart.
Thank you for giving her to us...
I may not show her my LOVE but she's the most important WOMAN in my life.

Thank You for my siblings James, Jay-r and Jessa...
They inspired me to strive harder when we were young.
They are the reason why I've gone this far...
They made me feel valuable in this world as an ATE.

Thank you for giving them their partners in life and kids...
hoping they could strive harder too for their family...
They made me laugh, they made me strive more harder in life...
They are blessings to my FAMILY.

Thank you Lord for all the friends who's always there...
Thank you for my relatives they are my helping hands...
Special thanks to my In-LAws for giving birth to my husband and for always there for us.
Thank you for all them! Thank you Lord!

In the name of Jesus,

AMEN!

Your Daughter,
JES

To All The People I Love....

I am so sleepy now, it's already 11:15 in the evening and I don't wanna sleep yet. As I've said I am sleepy but I am afraid to go to sleep for I am having a chest pain. It's different among chest pain I've ever experienced. It's in the middle of my chest and it's aching. I can still breath don't worry. I justwanna blog it whatever happens atleast I have written it here. Last Saturday night I had this feeling again ....I feel like I'm gonna see the sun rise no more. I don't know and I can't explain why I am feeling that way. I don't have any sickness/diseases (as far as I know) but I am so afraid to die yet. I can't sleep that night...I am thinking of things that might happen if I die that night. Just like today....same feeling I got. It's been 14 minutes and my chest is still in pain. Everybody is sleeping already except for EThan my son coz he can't sleep if I am not beside him. I don't wanna bother anybody. I know God will do something in case anything happens. Right now I have to stay awake first coz I don't wanna sleep having this chest pain. My father died sleeping, same with my Lola(dad's mom)...I don't wanna die without saying goodbye to my love ones but I don't wanna die in pain too! Oh please God please heal this chest pain now so I can sleep and have a great morning tomorrow...
I love my husband, I love my kids Ishi and EThan, I love my Mom, my brothers and sister and their kids...I love my friends...I love every people that touches my life. I love you all most especially my husband!

My Ultimate Medicine

Today is such a great day even if I am sick, have fever, can't breath perfectly because of so hard cough, but had the greatest feeling ever! Yeah! I feel great! You know why? Last night daddy brought us Krispy Kreme doughnut I requested from him that day. I know it's not voluntary but still, he granted my request. =) This morning hubby noticed I have a fever, actually I am always having this fever every night and I am still wondering why until now. I think it's because of my cough only. Well, I don't care coz taking paracetamol lowers my fever anyway. Back to my story, when hubby noticed my fever he kissed me in my forehead and he touches my face, he hugged so tight like I am dying already(just kidding). I missed that! I love that! That is the greatest medicine that would make me feel better. That's all I just wanted to share how happy I am today! Good day! =)

I hate myself! I'm a bad daughter!

Just hated myself so much when I am getting annoyed. I hate myself for being so hot headed. I hate myself for I know I have a tendency to do worse things when I am mad! Why I am like this?
Why I have to find someone who I can blame for all my own mistake? Why do I easily get angry? How come of all people in this world I have to blame my Mom (who's with me during weekdays) every time I see things that is not good to my sight? Is this because she's the only person that I can see inside the house? Is this because I am paying her labor? Why am I so rude to her? Why do I have to talk to her like this and that? And even I know I already hurt her, I can't even say sorry. I am so bad! I am so rude! I love my mom I know that! I am happy and thankful she's here beside me even for the fact that I am giving her allowance, she's really a big help for me. Without her, I don't know how to do all the stuff inside the house.
Just right now, I made a terrible thing again! My mom called me reporting what my daughter has done to her toy I just gave her yesterday. She said Ishi disassembled them. I didn't mind what she just said, I continued doing my stuff. I am so busy with so many things that time. In realty, in my reloading business coz my brother(he's in my store) keeps on text-ting me about the problem in reloading. That time my head is already getting hot. I am already annoyed because of so many reasons (i don't remember them already). Then my cellphone got lowbat and i have to find my charger. I can't find it everywhere, I asked again my mom if my brother brought it to the store. She said she don't know. Then I got so annoyed again! I went to the terrace, I saw my kids playing with the disassembled toy my mom just told me about awhile ago. her with some piece of wood(part of the toy), I al so mad at her. I am so mad that I can't remember why I so reacted that way! Because I don't want to hurt my kids I told them shouting to go inside the room. Since I am so mad....I didn't stop talking! I am so mad while assembling the toy! I said "sisrain ko to! sisirain ko to!", "wala akayung ka concern concern! kanina po to sinabing kinalas hanggang ngayun hawak nyo pa din!!!". I just keep on talking and talking and I dunno already why am I so mad! I am referring to my kids but I am also mad with my mom because she told me about the toy for about 20 minutes ago but she still didn't get the toy instead she has to report it pa! I am so mad because she can't handle my kids! I also said to my kids this lines "Matigas ba ang ulo nyo? hindi ba kayu marunong makinig sa lola nyo?? gusto nyo humanap ako ng mag aalaga sa inyu na katatakutan nyo?!?". My daughter keeps on crying because she can see how really mad I am that time. I don't wanna hit her that's why I keep on talking just to release my tension and the madness inside my heart. And the suddenly my mom shouted already saying "hindi ko naman sila pinapabayaan ah, inaalagaan ko naman sila ah" then I reply still shouting, 'hindi naman yun ang sinasabi ko, ang sinasabi ko hindi nyo ba sila kayang alagaan? kailangan ba sumbong nyo lang lagi? Hindi nyo ba sila kayang pasunurin?" then I go back to our room. She continue talking and complaining "bakit hindi lang naman sila ang inaasikaso ko ah! Hindi lang naman pag aalaga ang ginagawa ko ah! Gusto mo humanap ka ng ibang mag aalaga, grabe kang makapagsalita, grabe ang mga salita mo". The we both stopped talking. I felt so disappointed after that scene. I dunno but I really cried so hard. I don't remember saying any rude words to her. I'm actually talking to my kids. I don't remember any single word have said. But the truth is I really got mad to my mom. I really got annoyed because she has to call me pa with somethings kayang kaya naman nya i-handle. I hate that when that happens! I want her to control my kids, I want my kids to obey their lola but the lola keeps on calling me when I am there. Sometimes I was thinking she loves to wash clothes than to take care of my kids. I can see her concerns and love for my kids but sometimes I have that feeling. Maybe because she's already tired sometimes. I can't blame her for she has to wash our clothes, prepare out breakfast (breakfast only), clean the house (oh she's not into cleaning that's why most often I am doing that), bring Ethan to school from 11 am to 12:30pm, bring kids to bed for their nap (she can't also do this because the kids aren't listening to her so sometimes I have to do that even I have to do something else). After that I don't know what she's doing then. I know everything is hard. I know everything is tiring but she's not the only one who's busy here. I am pressured with so many things. I am thinking of so many things for my family and for them. I am also tired. I am also busy. I don't know. I am so confused. I don't know what wrong have I done. I can't remember them. All I know is that I am so bad! I am so bad! I am so bad!

Yuckie weight of 110lbs from 90lbs =(

I almost forgot to have my injection last month due to many things I've been doing. Good thing I still have one day to catch up, thank God! SO I visited my OB, done with my "injectible", next comeback is for paps mere, hope to come back as soon as possible this month. As standard procedure before my OB injected me, ate Neneng, the nurse always getting my BP and weight. I can't believe I am now weighing 110lbs! Yuckie! I did gain so much weight! My original weight before I got pregnant was 90lbs. I don't remember my weight during my pregnancy, all I can remember is after giving birth to Ethan, my weight then was 104 lbs. Most of the people were saying I am not fat. But I still attended GYM and Aerobic class. After then I lost 3lbs. When I started to become busy in real estate, I stopped attending those class until now. That's why I am so alarmed that I gained this much weight. I think I should go back to the gym again. My tummy is really fat already and I can notice my pants were all becoming so tight to me. I really need to lose weight! Oh gosh I don't want to become a "dabiana"!

I Want a Business!

I remember having a business when I was only 8 years old. One day my papa saw me selling chocolates in our little window. I am buying some packs of chocolates in the market near our place and I am hanging it in our window like what I am seeing in stores. The day after my papa saw me selling chocolates he decided to put up a real store for me. I was actually the one managing it at that age, now I know why my papa was so strict in teaching us Math, maybe he just wants us(my brother and I) to become a good businessman someday. After a few months putting up that store, God took him from us. I remember my papa telling his friends before he passed away that when I grew up, I will become a businesswoman. I just realized it when I was in high school that he's right about his prediction. I am really into sales, I am into this kind of work. How I wish I could have enough money to put up any business. I tried my luck in direct selling like Natasha, Avon, Fullerlife, Boardwalk, MSE etc. but it didn't work. Now, I am into realty, I am selling house and lot, condos and lot only and I am enjoying it a lot! It's just that, my real dream is to have a store. I want a sari sari store and general merchandise before. I find it so fun and exciting. I love selling different things, I want a very colorful store. I am still thinking of owning a sari sari store but I don't have my own house yet, maybe soon If I have one already. For now, I am thinking of a simple business, I want to franchise one. Someone offered one already and I am still thinking of it. I have to think about first if this kind business will work or not. I know that I should take risk, but of course I have to think about it first right? I don't have any idea in franchising yet, hope to have one soon I really love to have a business already. Hope to find a good place to put it up if ever.
Anybody who can give me ideas and tips what to do? And what to choose? Thanks guys!

My First Studio Shot Project

My cousin Monica was here in Manila taking her vacation. She's from Laoag Ilocos Norte where I studied high school. She was staying with my aunt in Caloocan and she also stayed in our house for 3 days. I let her use the computer, introduce her to some techi things. My kids love her, they don't wanna let her go. But she have to coz she's still studying in highschool. While updating her friendster, she said she has no picture to upload to her account. I volunteered to take her a picture using my low tech digicam (my olympus is under repair @ servimax). She agreed, I set up a semi studio in my room with my kids stuff toys as a props. Here's my sample shots:

I added some designs in photoshop

Mother's Day Special Wishes

Let me share you some of my wishes:

I want a new DENTURES (fix bridge)
I want to have warts removal in my face
I want a DSLR
I want a rubbershoes (nike)
I want hair rebond
I want armfit hair removal

Let's Celebrate Mommies!!!!

Happy mother's day to all of us, it's my first time to celebrate mother's day in blogosphere. I am lucky I've met fellow moms out there from different sides of the world. I am learning a lot from you guys.
I wanted to share this tag to all mommies in my blog roll and to those mommies who have visited my site feel free to grab this. We all deserve this tag...HAPPY MOTHER's DAY!!!!!!

Thanks BAMBI for sharing this tag and now I am passing it to you again and to all of mom's in my blogroll =)
BAmbi, Chris, Mary ann, Momgen, Laine, Liza, Sandi, Willa, Genebei, Shyhub, Pephot, Earth, Miriam, MckMama, Pinaymama, Twinkie, Sweet_shelo, JAcris, Joy, Enchie, Mrs. K, Che, Online Mommy, Jona, Julliefer, Maricel, Architect, Hanna's Mom, Joy and Tetcha

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Before I was a Mom -
I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom -
I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom -
I had never been puked on - Pooped on - Spit on - Chewed on, or Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and My thoughts. I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom -
I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests...or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom -
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life
so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom -
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom -
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known The warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

Send this to someone whom you think is a special Mom...

And remember that behind every successful woman......
is a basket of dirty laundry.

-Unknown

Answer For My Sentiments

Oh look how powerful our God is, I was just finished writing bout my sentiments a while ago and when I checked my email, God answered so quickly. Look what He told me.....

Footprints In The Sand

One night I had a dream--
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord
and across the sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints,
one belonged to me and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that many times along the path of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
and saddest times in my life.
This really bothered me and I questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you would walk with me all the way,
but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints.
"I don't understand why in times when I needed you most,
you should leave me."
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child,
I love you and I would never, never leave you
during your times of trial and suffering.
"When you saw only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

A poem from Momgen's site. I am receiving notifications of her post whenever she had one because I subscribed to her site. And when I opened her site right after I post about my sentiments, this is what I read. Oh, this is such a wonderful poem, I haven't read this all my life. I am so touched and feeling blessed because God is always with me.

Time Fly so Fast....What I have been Accomplished?

First quarter of the year is almost finished now, my hubby and I have so much plans but I can't see any accomplishments for the past 3 months of the year. I have done some of my resolutions like buying books for my kids, I am also trying very hard to sell house and lots. Oh yeah, before I forgot I should hurry my husband to finish our website for House Finder Philippines. I can't blame him because making a website is not that easy, we actually planned to hire somebody to make it for us but I don't think that's practical. Seems that I have no choice but to hire somebody or a company that could able to do it fast if it can't be done till next quarter. Have you heard about this Data Scraping Software thing? I was searching one night and I found so many companies like this. I actually no idea what this is all about. There are lots of things in the interenet that I don't understand. Anyways, what more important now is to think another ways tof meeting my plans for this year. And I hope we could also have a vacation this summer with our kids alone. Gosh, I have lots in my mind but it's not just planning you know. There are lots of things to consider. For now, I just wanna share some stuff like this. Sigh!

Wordless Wednesday : We're on Top of The World!

Summit @ Mt. Sembrano, Antipolo

Am I Ready for Mountain Climbing Tomorrow?

At last, I will experience one of the adventure I am dreaming of. I wanted to climb or hike a mountain. Yes, we will be going tomorrow! I am quite nervous I dunno if it is because of excitement or what. We already have somethings we will be needing up there. We borrowed tent, sleeping bag, water container adn ofcourse bags. We will be needing some de latas and bigas. We only need konti lang coz it's just an overnight adventure. Oh gosh I hope I could still endure the pagod going up there. Mabilis na ko hingalin because I don't have exercise here at home. Well good luck to me then.

I prepared somethings I'll be needing like 2 pairs of shoes (i don't hav proper shoes yet I only have rubber shoes), jacket, socks, and undies. I dunno if we are going to take a bath in the morning pa but I did bring extra pamalit na lang pagbaba. Tootbrush, off lotion, alcohol if ever we dont take a bath ahahahha. Anyways were not going to stay that long, i think overnight is maikling panahon lang. I think I can do it, My hubby's there naman he will guide me if ever hehehheh =)

Oh gosh I am so excited, I wanna take pictures up there. I wanna eperience the fun mountaineers were talking about. If ever I had fun, I think we'll do this again. Good luck to me and to my husband! God Bless us!

I'm Joining Procrastination Challenge!

I am joining Procrastination Challenge by Debbie of Virtually Organized.
Through this I think I will be able to stop procrastinations (for the meantime) heheheh.



Here's what I am planning to do since January 2009:

I have already bought an extra cabinet for some of my kids' clothes. Their closet is very crowded so that is one of my project, to organize their cabinet.

My kids has a lot of toys, and their all over our room (we're staying in one room). We actually made a big cabinet for their toys but it's still not organize. Everytime they wanted their toy they just climb up and get what they want without returning it back to their proper places, sigh!
So this is my 2nd project (what a mess).... to organize their toys.

This is the toys cabinet, my computer table at the right side


Gosh, can you imagine how will I be able to organize that? hmmm....my head is aching now.
But aside from that, I wanted to wash my kids shoes and slippers... I started it now!



And those are my projects, hope to finish them all.....Good luck to me!!

I'll Never fall In Love Again!

I'll Never fall In Love Again
by: Burt Bucharach

What do you get when you fall in love?
A guy with a pin to burst your bubble
That's what you get for all your trouble
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again

What do you get when you kiss a girl
You get enough germs to catch pneumonia
After you do, she'll never phone you
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again

Don't tell me what it's all about
'Cause I've been there and I'm glad I'm out
Out of those chains those chains that bind you
That is why I'm here to remind you

What do you get when you give your heart
You get it all broken up and battered
That's what you get, a heart that's shattered
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again

Out of those chains those chains that bind you
That is why I'm here to remind you

What do you get when you fall in love?
You only get lies and pain and sorrow
So for at least until tomorrow
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again

I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again

After reading Mayen's Story, I started to love this song. That's why I am posting it now, and for all those who haven't read it yet, you may read it now and start singing I'll Never fall In Love Again with me. Hehhehehe =)

Afraid....feeling Hopeless........?!?

What is this weird feeling I am feeling right now? Am I just bored or something? What? Why? I am so affected with what happened to my client lately. He was my first client ever in real estate. He got 2 different condo units from me. He's working abroad and I think He has a big salary in there. Suddenly I received an email from his wife saying that they can no longer continue paying their condos anymore because his husband lose his Job abroad! This is very shocking news. The first thing that came into my mind is that "what will happen to my commision then?", I know this is selfish because I wan thinking of my own interests, but later on I realized that we we're still lucky because my husband still has a job. I only lose comission but they will possibly lose what they invested already in their condo units! What a tragedy!! This is scary..yes I am scared....scared for my kids.....I hope God will continue guiding us...helping us and keep me stronger than ever!

My Birthday says........

August

Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless.Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends .
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A Woman's Life.....

I just finished washing some clothes a while ago.....I am not feeling well these past few days I think i have a flu, It's been 4 days now but I have no choice but to do this. My husband has this kind of sickness too and then my kids....and then my mom who used to be washing clothes for us and taking care of my kids when I am doing some work. Now that my mom is sick too, I have to do some chores even I am not feeling better yet. Last night I did also massage my husband even I am not feeling well....He seems so tired. I wanted to lessen the pain or discomfort he's feeling that night. I think that helped! How I wish we could get better now, I wanted to feel better as well as my family so we could all be happy on my cousin in law's wedding on Saturday! You know how ecited am I right?